Halfway there or halfway done?!?!

Another week has come and gone and I realize that this test group will be ending before i know it. I'm half way to the end of this wonderful experiment but i've only just begun my personal journey.

This week I decided to step up my cardio thanks to some advice from Maia. I decided to meet up with Tracey and Ashley for a preclass jog. A jog that turned out to be 3.2 miles of hills! Can I get an OW?!?!? Talk about really pushing myself! The first time i did it, I lost sight of them and fell way behind. The second time, I was determined to keep Tracye with in my eyesight and it really helped me improve my time drastically. I don't know if my time will be better  this week but even if I can keep shaving off a few seconds here and there, I'll be happy. I hate feeling like there is no change or standing still. I was like that for too long and I don't ever want to go back to that dark place.

I think this is something that I am going to keep up. Its the cardio that I really hope will help me lose some more pounds. I know that thanks to bootcamp, I've lost fat and gained muscle...:LOTS of muscle. I can see that my arms and legs are tightening up but the place that I so really want to see a diffference in, I'm not. I know that I shouldn't be discouraged. The fact that my clothes are fitting so much looser should be a clear indicator of the fact that I am losing weight but sometimes its not. Deep down, i know it's all in my head and that's why I'm so thankful for my family and friends that keep supporting meand saying encouraging things to me so that i don't give up. It helps me ignore all those people that think I'm crazy for pushing myself so hard but i don't know any other way. Sure there have been days where I have no motivation to work out but I do it. i don't want to quit. I want to keep pushing! i know that once this test group is over, i'll have to learn to push myself again but I look at this experience as that head start to get me started and put my head on the right path. i have to remind myself that thanks to boot camp, i have more energy, I can look at myself in the mirror and say...man, you look good and really mean it. If i think posivtively, positive things can happen.

Last week's goal was to make sure that i are my calories and kept track of them and I am glad to report that i did. I downloaded myfitnesspal.com and really made sure to track everything that I ate. i didn't realize that I was under eating my calories so often. That really explains why when I got home, all I wanted to do was eat and not stop. Now, i make sure i eat 95% of my calories before class and then end the day with protien (shake or bar). Just these few simple changes and i've noticed that it is easier to control the hunger cravings and make sure my body is properly fueled. I even noticed that my water intake has increased, which is great because come on, when is it ever bad to have TOO much water?

Monday, I hope for some good results. I hope to see a few more inches lost and hopefully some pounds also, If there are no big numbers, I'm going to remind myself something that Maia told me. "i can't expect to lose what i gained in a few months over a few weeks." I'll use it all as motivation to keep pushing and trying. i want to incorporate some more jogging and really try harder in class. I would like to see that I can do maybe 15 pushups instead of just 7 and things like that.

So until tomorrow night, i'm going to stay calm, positive, jog before work and be ready to sweat my ass off in class!