Another week has come and gone and I realize that this test group will be ending before i know it. I'm half way to the end of this wonderful experiment but i've only just begun my personal journey.
This week I decided to step up my cardio thanks to some advice from Maia. I decided to meet up with Tracey and Ashley for a preclass jog. A jog that turned out to be 3.2 miles of hills! Can I get an OW?!?!? Talk about really pushing myself! The first time i did it, I lost sight of them and fell way behind. The second time, I was determined to keep Tracye with in my eyesight and it really helped me improve my time drastically. I don't know if my time will be better this week but even if I can keep shaving off a few seconds here and there, I'll be happy. I hate feeling like there is no change or standing still. I was like that for too long and I don't ever want to go back to that dark place.
I think this is something that I am going to keep up. Its the cardio that I really hope will help me lose some more pounds. I know that thanks to bootcamp, I've lost fat and gained muscle...:LOTS of muscle. I can see that my arms and legs are tightening up but the place that I so really want to see a diffference in, I'm not. I know that I shouldn't be discouraged. The fact that my clothes are fitting so much looser should be a clear indicator of the fact that I am losing weight but sometimes its not. Deep down, i know it's all in my head and that's why I'm so thankful for my family and friends that keep supporting meand saying encouraging things to me so that i don't give up. It helps me ignore all those people that think I'm crazy for pushing myself so hard but i don't know any other way. Sure there have been days where I have no motivation to work out but I do it. i don't want to quit. I want to keep pushing! i know that once this test group is over, i'll have to learn to push myself again but I look at this experience as that head start to get me started and put my head on the right path. i have to remind myself that thanks to boot camp, i have more energy, I can look at myself in the mirror and say...man, you look good and really mean it. If i think posivtively, positive things can happen.
Last week's goal was to make sure that i are my calories and kept track of them and I am glad to report that i did. I downloaded myfitnesspal.com and really made sure to track everything that I ate. i didn't realize that I was under eating my calories so often. That really explains why when I got home, all I wanted to do was eat and not stop. Now, i make sure i eat 95% of my calories before class and then end the day with protien (shake or bar). Just these few simple changes and i've noticed that it is easier to control the hunger cravings and make sure my body is properly fueled. I even noticed that my water intake has increased, which is great because come on, when is it ever bad to have TOO much water?
Monday, I hope for some good results. I hope to see a few more inches lost and hopefully some pounds also, If there are no big numbers, I'm going to remind myself something that Maia told me. "i can't expect to lose what i gained in a few months over a few weeks." I'll use it all as motivation to keep pushing and trying. i want to incorporate some more jogging and really try harder in class. I would like to see that I can do maybe 15 pushups instead of just 7 and things like that.
So until tomorrow night, i'm going to stay calm, positive, jog before work and be ready to sweat my ass off in class!
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Oh motivation...you are such a bitch!
Yes, I'm talking to you, motivation! You come and go and leave me wondering how long you'll last! But guess what?!? I don't always need you! This whole week I have felt like crap and instead of going to boot camp, I would have preferred to go home, get in my comfy clothes and veg out on the couch because you weren't around. But I didn't cave! I went to class all 4 days and worked hard! I wasn't going to let you hold me back! I hope you read this and realize that no longer am I relying on such a fickle part of me but also listening to my body and heart who have joined up against you and are determined to push me! Motivation, you better come hurry back because my will power is going to beat your ass!
If it wasn't for my will power, i would have had that cake, that second beer or all that candy but I didn't. Even when i felt down, I kept going. I tried to stay focus and remember that all this is for me. And not just any old me, but a new and improved me! Even when I just wanted to give up, will power wouldn't let me. When I felt like nothing was working, will power reminded me that the change would come and I had to be patient.
Will power got me off my ass on Saturday to run 3 miles and man, did i run! With the help of my knee bands, I jogged for such a longer period of time that I had to improvise at the last minute and run in a new direction because i had only been outside for 25 minutes. My breathing was on track and my pace was great!
But with your help motivation, I can do so much better! I'll jog farther and for a longer period of time without feeling winded. 3 miles!?!? Let's go for 4 next week! Maia says more cardio will help me lose the weight so let's work on it together! Let's get together and focus on making sure to track everything i eat on myfitnesspal and add more cardio to my routine as well as more water. I can never have enough water!
You know, with you and will power together, not only are you helping me but inspiring those around me. My brother has been making the effort to hit the gym and walk more. Even making sure to eat healthier. If I can keep this up, hopefully he will, too! We both need this and you know it! He's not the only one that's noticed the improvements! People are noticing how much more energy I have and how much weight I've lost. Whenever I put on clothes and see how much looser they are, i do a happy dance! I don't want to stop my happy dance! Tracye finally said I have an ass!!! YEAH!!!
Let's do this! You, will power, determination and me will be unstoppable if we stick together! Eating right, working out and pushing through this! We can do it! 3 weeks down and 5 to go to make a difference! We can do it!
If it wasn't for my will power, i would have had that cake, that second beer or all that candy but I didn't. Even when i felt down, I kept going. I tried to stay focus and remember that all this is for me. And not just any old me, but a new and improved me! Even when I just wanted to give up, will power wouldn't let me. When I felt like nothing was working, will power reminded me that the change would come and I had to be patient.
Will power got me off my ass on Saturday to run 3 miles and man, did i run! With the help of my knee bands, I jogged for such a longer period of time that I had to improvise at the last minute and run in a new direction because i had only been outside for 25 minutes. My breathing was on track and my pace was great!
But with your help motivation, I can do so much better! I'll jog farther and for a longer period of time without feeling winded. 3 miles!?!? Let's go for 4 next week! Maia says more cardio will help me lose the weight so let's work on it together! Let's get together and focus on making sure to track everything i eat on myfitnesspal and add more cardio to my routine as well as more water. I can never have enough water!
You know, with you and will power together, not only are you helping me but inspiring those around me. My brother has been making the effort to hit the gym and walk more. Even making sure to eat healthier. If I can keep this up, hopefully he will, too! We both need this and you know it! He's not the only one that's noticed the improvements! People are noticing how much more energy I have and how much weight I've lost. Whenever I put on clothes and see how much looser they are, i do a happy dance! I don't want to stop my happy dance! Tracye finally said I have an ass!!! YEAH!!!
Let's do this! You, will power, determination and me will be unstoppable if we stick together! Eating right, working out and pushing through this! We can do it! 3 weeks down and 5 to go to make a difference! We can do it!
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Waiting for my results...
This past week has been crazy with all the raining and flooding. At the rate it was going, I thought I would have to swim my way around town. That would have been my cardio of the week! Even with all the craziness, I still managed to get to bootcamp and workout on my own.
My knee still isn't back to normal but it's on its way. Every class I went to and any extra workouts I did, I kept trying to push myself to work hard. When I felt a twinge of pain, I could have stopped and just done the modified version but that's not me. I want to lose weight, get back in to shape and be healthier...happier. So I breathe through the pain and keep working, but I always make sure to listen to my body. I want to continue my journey and not end it becuase of an injury.
I hate being hurt. It makes me feel that the next time I am measured there won't be any change. I know intellectually that that won't be the case but I can't help it. As I ice my knee, it's like an inner battle in my head that i deal with. My friends and family tell me that they can see I've lost weight and they keep pushing me to give up. My brother has een been inspired enough to accompany me during my cardio workouts and eat healhier. The fact that I'm inspiring him is amazing. We've always struggled with our weight but knowing that the changes that i'm making help him...that's fantastic. All the support is encouraging and reminds me why I'm doing this. I'm not doing this just for myself but for others who feel like they can do it. If I can do it, any one can do it. I'd rather be in the house watching TV or reading a book after work or on the weekends but instead, i workout or do something active. This weekend, for example, I spent 6 hours in the back yard breaking down branches, cutting the grass and other yardwork. Something i would spend as little time as possible doing before but not now. I feel anxious and bored if I don't DO something.
Food is still an issue. i need to try harder to eat smaller amounts of food and more often but at times, I'm so busy that time literally runs away from me. By the time I eat lunch, I'm starving and practically trying to swallow my food whole. On weekends, there are times that I'm just not hungry and before i know it, it's 7pm and again, I'm starving. I know better than that. I really do. I just need to focus and not let myself get to that point becuase when I do, I'm not thinking properly. I won't always go for the healthy option but I'll choose whatever I can eat right away. It doesn't mean that I always eat poorly. I'm thankful that every day I pack lunch, dinner and my snacks so that I won't pass my daily caloric intake but instead of spreading it all out for the day, I'll eat two times and call it a day.
My goals this week is not only to keep pushing myself to do better and take care of my knee, but to make sure i eat better. I want to make sure that I lose weight and improve every week and I know that working out will help but eating right will be what helps make a difference in my numbers. I need to focus and if I have to, set up some type of alarm to remind to eat every 3 hours!
I'm anxious for tomorrow. I know that after my measurements are taken, there will be a difference and even if it is small, I need to stay positive and work hard. It's not a race...this is for the long haul.
My knee still isn't back to normal but it's on its way. Every class I went to and any extra workouts I did, I kept trying to push myself to work hard. When I felt a twinge of pain, I could have stopped and just done the modified version but that's not me. I want to lose weight, get back in to shape and be healthier...happier. So I breathe through the pain and keep working, but I always make sure to listen to my body. I want to continue my journey and not end it becuase of an injury.
I hate being hurt. It makes me feel that the next time I am measured there won't be any change. I know intellectually that that won't be the case but I can't help it. As I ice my knee, it's like an inner battle in my head that i deal with. My friends and family tell me that they can see I've lost weight and they keep pushing me to give up. My brother has een been inspired enough to accompany me during my cardio workouts and eat healhier. The fact that I'm inspiring him is amazing. We've always struggled with our weight but knowing that the changes that i'm making help him...that's fantastic. All the support is encouraging and reminds me why I'm doing this. I'm not doing this just for myself but for others who feel like they can do it. If I can do it, any one can do it. I'd rather be in the house watching TV or reading a book after work or on the weekends but instead, i workout or do something active. This weekend, for example, I spent 6 hours in the back yard breaking down branches, cutting the grass and other yardwork. Something i would spend as little time as possible doing before but not now. I feel anxious and bored if I don't DO something.
Food is still an issue. i need to try harder to eat smaller amounts of food and more often but at times, I'm so busy that time literally runs away from me. By the time I eat lunch, I'm starving and practically trying to swallow my food whole. On weekends, there are times that I'm just not hungry and before i know it, it's 7pm and again, I'm starving. I know better than that. I really do. I just need to focus and not let myself get to that point becuase when I do, I'm not thinking properly. I won't always go for the healthy option but I'll choose whatever I can eat right away. It doesn't mean that I always eat poorly. I'm thankful that every day I pack lunch, dinner and my snacks so that I won't pass my daily caloric intake but instead of spreading it all out for the day, I'll eat two times and call it a day.
My goals this week is not only to keep pushing myself to do better and take care of my knee, but to make sure i eat better. I want to make sure that I lose weight and improve every week and I know that working out will help but eating right will be what helps make a difference in my numbers. I need to focus and if I have to, set up some type of alarm to remind to eat every 3 hours!
I'm anxious for tomorrow. I know that after my measurements are taken, there will be a difference and even if it is small, I need to stay positive and work hard. It's not a race...this is for the long haul.
Friday, September 2, 2011
First Week!
First week of the boot camp down!!!
The first class was INTENSE but i felt the burn and came back for more. The fact that the first class didn't scare me away is a good sign. Unforunately, my knee is mad at me for pushing so hard out of our comfort zone and is protesting by swelling up. I plan on resting and icing it during this 3 day weekend because i want to come back and work harder. I refuse to let my knee hold me back. So even though i should take it easy, I'm still going to head out with my jogging partner aka Maddie (my dog) and get some miles in.
So, no crazy calorie intake since i won't be able to burn them off. This means...ONE glass of wine tonight at the party and getting to the know veggie platter really well. *sigh* One glass of wine....this should be interesting!
The first class was INTENSE but i felt the burn and came back for more. The fact that the first class didn't scare me away is a good sign. Unforunately, my knee is mad at me for pushing so hard out of our comfort zone and is protesting by swelling up. I plan on resting and icing it during this 3 day weekend because i want to come back and work harder. I refuse to let my knee hold me back. So even though i should take it easy, I'm still going to head out with my jogging partner aka Maddie (my dog) and get some miles in.
So, no crazy calorie intake since i won't be able to burn them off. This means...ONE glass of wine tonight at the party and getting to the know veggie platter really well. *sigh* One glass of wine....this should be interesting!
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