Positivity,,,it's not too bad!

Last week, I was determined to have a good week. I was determined to stay positive, work hard and enjoy everyday to the fullest and I sure did. I wasn't going to let the negativity of others or myself bring me down and it worked. It really worked. Usually, something will happen that will make me want to withdraw and hide fromt the world so that I could mope around by myself but I not this week. When not one, not two but three separate incidents tried to get in my way and tried to set me off course, I said NO and kept pushing. On Tuesday when Tracye couldn't make it for my jog,  I could have backed out but when I startined debating with myself about going and looking forward to backing out, I went anyways. On Thursday, when i thought I was going to jog by myself, i talked a coworker into joining and going to class. I'll let my body rest but i won't let it get comfortable. I've worked to hard these past few months to give up easily.

Even when it comes to my diet...no, i don't want to use that word anymore...DIET...what a horrible word. It's so noncommittal and I'm not on a diet, I'm making a lifestyle change. I'm eating healthier and making sure that if I want to eat some thing with more calories, I work hard to burn it off. Yes, I had a burger before going to see "Othello"on Friday night, but instead of hailing a cab from the restaurant to the theatre, I walked and in heels! And I LOVED IT! The night was great, the breeze refreshing and surrounsing me with the smells of fall in the city and i enjoyed a great conversation with my friend!

I am now beginning to see the difference in my body. I see those numbers every weigh in, get smaller but I could never see it the mirror, that is until now. My face looks so much thinner and my legs are pretty much all muscle. My arms...the one part of my body that causes me so much displeasure and embarrasment, are firmer, muscular and not so grotesque looking. Hell, I may even wear a tank top this summer! People have noticed a change in my body and attitude. I seem to have an endless amount of energy some days and am always bouncing around the office. But let me kid you not, I still need that cup of coffee in the morning but now I can enjoy instead of depending on it for a boost.

My brother, who I want to inspire so that he will begin to take care of himself again, has begun going for walks with me and my dog and is really paying more attention to what he eats. I'm so happy and this gives me the push to keep going. The drive to not give up and let life keep me down. I'm not going to let my sadness run my life anymore. I'm going to fight it and WIN!

This is the final week coming up and though it saddens me to know that the end is here, I'm know it's not really the end. I've met some great people that are determined to continue the good fight and if they want company, I'm here! I'm in for the long haul and I know I can't do this by myself, So if you inspire me, I'm going to try to inspire you!  So, i'm going to push hard, sweat my butt off and dig deep because I'm in this for the long haul!